I'm not who I was

As the year comes to a close I think about years past. I am most definitely not who I used to be. I've gained 30 pounds. Lost 20. Gained another 30. Then lost another 25. 

Among this I've gained boobs that have sunken to lower levels. 

My stomach and hips have stripes that of a tiger while my legs represent a spiders home. 

All this from growing two of the most incredible miracles. 

My heart has grown two sizes larger as my two daughters grew theirs, close to mine. 

My skin has stretched to make room so my daughters could grow their own tough exterior. 

As my hips grew wider, my daughters grew stronger. 

The extra cushion around my middle provides the perfect handles for my daughters to cling to when they will need comfort, love, support. 

I am not who I was. 

No. I am more perfected because of the two perfect beings God created in me. 

I am perfection in their eyes while the bags under my eyes could belong to Mary Poppins herself. But as I comfort my girls at all hours of the day and night they see all they need to in the peacefulness on my daughters' faces. 

My shoulders slump from the constant way they are curved from holding and rocking my loves to sleep, to ease pain and bring comfort. To show they are loved. 

I am not who I was. 

I am tired. 

I am forgetful. 

I am late. 

I am not put together. 

I am comfort to a teething baby. 

I am kindness to hurt feelings. 

I am love to two small hearts. 

I am a mother. 

And from all my imperfections God has created two beautiful humans. 

Not every woman can boast of this change. Some by choice, others through angst. I feel blessed to have these changes in my life. I am honored to be a changed person for whom two tiny humans can call mom. 

I can't wait for the changes to come in 2014. Happy New Year!  

5 Months: 12-22-13

My little chunka monk is 5 months old today. Time is flying by. 

She's on a roll - literally. She's liking being on her tummy a whole lot more now that she's realized she can have more fun. 

She's constantly watching. Observing. Taking it all in. 

Her drool has increased along with some crankiness so I'm not sure if teeth are on the horizon or not but signs are saying so. Including the constant need to chew - on anything. 

She's sleeping great! Two 2 hour naps and a third cat nap before she's in for the night at 8:30pm sleeping until 8:30 the next morning. We've had a few rough nights this last month. I believe it's her teeth though. And two of the nights she suffered from stomach pains I probably gave her because I had some dairy, accidentally. 

I did try to eat some dairy on purpose though to see if her stomach had matured any. But unfortunately she still got horrible gas and tummy grumbles. Not to mention to horrific poops! Eek. 
Her reflux is still present. We've tried to take her off the medicine but that was a big mess. Literally. Needless to say, I hope if you visit us you don't mind the stained couches, pillows, floors. ;) 

She's got the jibber jabber down pat. She likes to put her two cents into conversations. Even during her feedings. I'll be talking and she'll give a little squeal from my lap. 

Smiley. Always smiling. Complete strangers in the store will light up as they walk by because she smiled at them. I love the joy she spreads around to others. 

She's truly a content, easy going baby. She's only fussy if she's trying to communicate something is wrong. 

Weight: 14 lbs
Length: 27 inches